Holyshittttttt. I so hate myself for missing Halloween and all the fun out. I so hate SP for having MST and elearning. Damn holyshits, really.

Thesis on vomitting

I know that you must be thinking right now, "WHAT THE HELL??? THESIS ON VOMITTING???!!!"
Lol.
Ok, time now is 2.30am and I was inspired to write on this post because I had just vomitted, yes again.
Just because I had 2 hotdogs and 2 cheese sausages, and that's it, I felt so bloated and felt as though something was stucked in my throat.

Or maybe, I'm suffering from mild bulimic. I don't know but I'd always ask myself whether if I want to vomit before I start vomitting. Maybe it's the guilt for having supper, BUT I CAN'T HELP IT YOU NUTS!

Alright, I don't vomit after every single meals, only when I'm feeling exceptionally bloated/ full/ something stucked in my throat sensation, then I'll vomit.

Let's see, I vomitted all sorts of textures of vomit, you name it, I had it.
Viscid ones, watery ones, gastric juices, comes in all shapes and colours ones...
If you had any troubles or need some tactics to vomit, free feel to come to me...
HAHAHA.

I'M NOT SICK LA KUKUS.

I blew my chance away,
I'm losing my grip.
I gave my chance away,
I'm regretting it.
Then came another uncertain,
which is most probably not gonna work.

Oh good gracious,
all I need is an assurance.
Like the fish relying on water,
like the Earth relying on Sun,
like the tree relying on soil,
like the cake relying on flour,
like the tears relying on cheeks,
like the me relying on you.
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Last day of school,
I felt totally stressed and tensed up.
Like a convict being trapped and interrogated.
When school ended,
I felt as though the stone in my heart dropped,
just like how a primary kid who can't wait for school to end,
and start skipping on the way home.

Went to Cine with dong and ksh,
ksh went to collect her online sweets.
And just out of the blue moon I saw Myra coming towards me.
Myra's my primary school bestbest friend.
We'd been in the same class from P1 to P4,
and after P4 we kept in touch by writing tiny letters to each other, almost daily.

It was such a coincedence can,
and how I wish I am still a lil' kid,
this adult world is not for me.

When are you going ask yourself why and not rather leaving the situation to deteoriorate?
You made it seem as though you're trampled, but the fact is we're perpetually under your feets.

Maybe if I'm less persistent, I might be happier.



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I'm a believer in "You reap what you sow". When you reap only 1 seed, you don't expect to see 10000 plants growing the next day. Also, if you don't spend time watering the seeds, I don't even see how you're going to sow it.



And then, it's gonna be really ironic when you go around saying, "Why are my plants not growing huh???" Otherwise, you'd start to blame the soil, the Sun, God who did not provide rain and everything under the sun except for yourself.



Why do you want put the blames on others when it's you yourself who didn't try to put in any effort?

Ok, I really believe in karma, so I would stop what I'd always been doing.
God bless that this society would eliminate unhappiness.

无论怎得罪你说我是负累
陪着我等于死去了无情趣
从前或现在当我是谁
你这一种伴侣
前夜一起睡你却没廉耻竟讲出口你怕受罪
完全忘记往日为何凌晨仍潮弄戏水
*(难道爱爱爱爱爱我对爱情已死心贪
高兴狠心敷衍一下却逼真的亲吻)
我们这结局太不堪分不出真假的爱恨
(无谓爱爱爱爱爱太过动魄惊心)
我估错这个世界得到教训
怎相信人
命中怎么爱着你为人〔罪行〕*

立甚么心肠我对你极善良如若
你肯想想我这样受伤
你会知爱情毒于砒霜
你怎安心可不改漂亮怎想象共
你已同享多少很真确晚上
一转头缠绵后要罚离场
repeat*
彷似幻像你给我的爱是玩具磨烂后变绝情
难为这洗劫永没罪证道别并无罪也没权问你内情
wow
repeat〔*〕*

(rap:我都唔知点解你现时对我冇晒感觉
以前嗰种快乐就好似成为一种罪恶
连我心情你都唔多觉
或者其实所谓爱情都只系互相搵一个补给
或者系一重即兴嘅幻觉
连自己都唔知道乜系喜乜噑系乐
几时有感觉又几时冇晒知觉
就算你无突然失去下落我唎之间都可能已经没落)
(把失败换教训不死总算幸运
看全没罪案发生慰藉众生不需责任
一起若像软禁无疑离开先更合衬)

My criteria would also be: The one that knows how to appreciate me.

Dear God,
I love you and thank you for letting me see Georgie today!!!
Alright man, he knows who I am can!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Pull the shirt over the head and do somersaults*
Thank you thank you!
Smooches smoochesssssssssssssssss.

Yesterday.






20/10
Accompanied daddy to kusu island to pray, since it's his b'dae, and it's the first time when he needed to spend his b'dae all alone with me, mum's at overseas.

Hollywood papa.




After everything, went to Vivo to slash his pocket and ate Sushi Tei for lunch.



Sea urchin sushi- This uber dumb sushi cost 10 FREAKING BUCKSSSSS...
I've been hearing alot of pple saying that it tastes heavenly, but when I ate it, it just taste so boooo... Total waste of munny, naughty urchin.



Mini hotpot, yummy beef.





Then..........
Went to meet Dong to go her house to celebrate Michelle's b'dae!!! Hahaha ...
We bought tidbits as presents, and wrapped all them up for her into a hamper... HAHAHA...
Too bad Michelle hates to take pictures, or else you all can see her!
She's the type of kid, when she's girlish, she veryyyy girlish, when she boyish, she very boyish...
Kiddooo...
And she was like so disappointed when we told her that we didn't get her any b'dae presents... Then when we showed her, her smile was just so uncontrollable! Hhaha...

So alot of her cousins came and all the boys are really really extremely naughtyyyyy except for MARTIN and Leonard ya?
Me and ksh first noticed Martin when he was silently standing at one corner of the room playing DS, while the rest of the kids are chirping over ps2.
And he's so so so cute cause he looks like the male version of Blythe!
He's 5 this year, and he's oh-my-jesus-too-cute-to-be-true.
Wonder why his brothers so naughty!

Martin and Martini! Hahaha... A name I gave myself just for him to remember clearly.
Ksh chose to call herself Chanel, in the end, Martin just kept forgetting her name!
And he's such a cutie pie can...
I was playing cooking mama on DS, cooking Udon.
And he, pronounced it as "UNDO"!!! HAHA...
HOW CUTE IS THAT????


And Martin's mum looks really young....... And she was like saying me and ksh are trying to flirt with her son can!
So we sent Martin to asked her mum how old she is, and he came back saying that his mum said, "18".
So we sent him to tell his mother that she should not tell lie.
So he went, and when he came back, he was in such serious tone, saying, "She lied! Is 28!"
Hahahahhaha....
Next time, I'll give birth to such a cute kid, with Marvin.
HAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!!
Not lah.
I kept calling Martin as Marvin today, sorry can't help it ;)

They're like 2 couples flirting with each other.


Gone crazy Ding Dong.


Highlight of the day- village girl.
Sorry, Mama ask me go pluck tea leaves now, byebye!

Hi, life has been quite a cycle, waking up at 7am, reaching home at 7pm.

Seeing MK (pple around me would know who he is, otherwise, he's a new crush of mine!) and eating yong tau foo and fruit tart and drinking lemon tea is also part of this cycle now.

TGIF, thank God it's Friday, I'm feeling literally light again.

Today, 8am-10am was cancelled.
It was such a joy to me, as though how a soccer fan would keep jumping around and wolf all his lungs out, like how a soccer player would pull his jersey over his head and skid on the patch of grass with his knees... Not pain meh?

Anyway, Statistics started at 3pm.
I reached school at around 3.20pm and found out that we're supposed to do homework!
My god, that's no good of you to create a thing called "HOMEWORK", but come on... it's just a joke, don't take it too seriously la la!
Therefore, in order to escape from sacarstic remarks and avoid preaches and chides from Ken, we decided to skip class.
We're bad, I know.
Me, dong and ksh headed towards Tampines, intended to catch a movie, in the end, just ate at Pizza Hut and shopped around.

We found out that Isetan sells really cheap and nice stuffs,
apart from some "Loan Sharks" shirt which costs freaking 60 bucks and ksh's cny ang bao shirt and "ghost" clothes.

Please for heaven's sake, we're not AUNTIES.
But our attitude towards having a seat on the MRT, we're definitely the 100% kiasu-est aunties (applied to me and ksh only), haha.

Anyway, today ate dinner with my family to celebrate my dad's b'dae, which is on 20th Oct.
Oh wells, there's not much to describe my Dad, just that sometimes he might just throw a very not-funny-joke to me, and I'll not laugh.
3 simple words to tell him, "I LOVE YOU."
Hahaha... This, I have no guts to tell him in his face, so if ever one day I met with an accident (choy touch wood!!!), please help me show this entry to him, tell him that I really appreciate him for showering me everything that I'd needed for my past 17years on Earth.

I still remember there was once when I was in don't know Primary 4/5... I was really in a depression mode. I had this constant dream that my parents had left me for good, and I would just jerk up every 1 hour which seems like 5 mins to me, and cry and check if whether they're still around. That was really torturing and I forgot how I got over that period haha.

My dad is a really nice guy whom made a really severe mistake.
Happy Birthday huh, Old Bean!
:D



Ok.
So if any of you guys wondering why I've got no tagboard for this blog, it's because I'm really lazy to create one, adjusting it and stuffs.
Secondly, the number of people who knows my blog, you can count them with your 10 fingers, maybe can even save some. Just don't like the feeling of letting strangers or people whom I'm not closed with to come comment on me, b'cause they've no rights as they don't even know me well enough to make judgements.

Oh ya, you can laugh at me for having no guts, I really don't mind cos I really don't have!

THE MOST EMBARRASSING DAY EVER.

This story started off with Miss. Lee having a crush on her Marketing lecturer, Mr. Teo, for his picture, please scroll down.

Marketing lecture was as usual enrapturing today, Georgie was as usual, so captivating.
Blahblahblah... 1 hour of lecture flew passed.
Everyone started stepping out of the lecture hall, Georgie was dilidaling with his own things, I was waiting at the side of the stairs for my friends to get ready and leave.

Finally, the lecture hall was almost vacant except for us and Georgie inside.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT MADE GERMAINE AND SIEWHWA WANT TO TALK TO HIM CAN!!! I had no idea who was the one who asked how old is he and if he's married already or not.
The only thing that I remembered VIVIDLY is:

Anonymous: Teacher how old are you? Are you married?

Georgie: Why you want to know?

KUA SIEW HWA: Is she want to know one... (FINGER POINTING AT ME)

I don't know whether on Earth if Georgie saw ksh pointing at me, but I the only thing I know is that, at that instance I just wanted to find a hole in the ground and hide inside it! SERIOUSLY!!! Now I truly understand how it feels to want to dig a hole and hide inside it. HOPEFULLY, HE'S BLIND AT THAT MOMENT PLEASEEEEEEEEEE.

Anyway, he's answer was "very old already" and "MARRIED".
FUCKKKK. Nonono... Georgie says cannot scold F word, must change it to strawberry/watermelon/mango/etc.
So it goes like, "Papaya lah!"




Ok back to my topic.
The more I come to think of it, the angrier I'm with Ksh.

Ksh, you imagine ah...
Let's say you still don't know mrt guy at all, and I help you take his number, imagine:

Cx: Hi, can I have your number?
Mrt guy: Why you want it for?
Cx: Because my friend over there wants it. (pointing at you who're standing at a visible distance)

I TELL YOU, YOU'LL JUST WANNA SPRINT TO NORTH POLE AND HIDE THERE FOREVER CAN!!!!!!

Sighsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
What's done has been done.
I'm not angry with Ksh already......




And the worst thing is, I actually felt so embarrassed that I cried unstoppably.
I cried until I was like sucking in for breaths of air, until Dong was telling me, "Stop crying already lah..." And I replied, "I... can't... stop..."

I was astonished by my own behaviour cause I didn't even know I'd go to the extent of crying for feeling embarrassed!!!

Ok , so now you pple know I don't like to initiate my feelings, so please don't try to give me a push or do anything, because a push can eventually push me down the valley.

Bye.

Hi!!!
I love the HK serial "我老婆未满18岁" shown on ChU ytd at 9pm!!!
It's such a great show and it's exactly the type of life and husband that I would love to have in the future!!!
I LOVE MATURE MEN!
Not that they need to be rich mind you, but need to be matured in their thinking and humorous at times.

Teach me what to do to be like them, teach me how to give birth to twins.

Jesus!

Today, my absolutely gayish Stats tutor-cum-lecturer, Mr. Ken Kwan, is getting so much cuter!
The way he walks, talks, moves, does every action is so gayish but SO ADORABLE!!!
It's such a waste he's a gay.
Though can't confirm if he's a 100% gay, but the way he acts definitely is.

So today after our test, we didn't want to leave the class immediately.
He was pretty high tided, therefore initially he wanted to bring his bag to the toilet and then come back to lock the door.
Halfway through walking towards the door, he walked back, told Jon that he'll leave his bag here and come back later.

So, he walked out. 2 seconds later, the door flung open. He strutted in and said, "Aiya, I better take the papers along with me." Then he took the papers from his bag, and kiap them under his armpit and strutted out!!! HAHAHA! So cute can!

Though he's not totally gorgeous, but he's so "ang-gu-gu"(meaning too cute until you'd want tickle his chin!).
It's such a waste argh.

Have gotten my big-eyed contact lens,

and it makes my eyes so similar to those who are wearing big-eyed contact lens.

Today went to siewhuay's house to help dongeh to dye her hair.

Her bro, Mingsheng is so cute!!!

Just like a small bear!!!

Siewhuay is a kiki(inside joke)!

She introduced us to her bro as Caoxian and Dongeh!

Kiki lala!

HOTTIE GEORGIE!

Out with xuxu ytd,
to bugis and vivo!


Ate porridge for lunch! So healthy!

Her watch is decomposing, from fresh red to orange! ZOMG <--- new word learnt today!
Another one from turquoise to green -.-

Umbrella is a present from me to her!

Caramel Frappe ...
As usual got photographed by paparazzi again, asking me where's Ashley.
Her choco frappe.
Super hotdog dinner.
Hers
Candy empire
Bestie! LOL, it's an inside joke.

How to "shrink" ur face when taking pics.

Stuffs bought from Japan for her.

Happy b'dae ya!

$14! Somemore it's limited edition casing, where to find?! Found it haha.
My rubbish bin bag.

THIS IS VERYYYYYYY NICCCCCCCCCEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Hi!

The best way to stalk a person is to walk a dog.
Was walking with kino round my house today and we saw a cutecute guy, well at least from the far.
So I brought kino to stalk and found that he's living at 24 Jalan Sukachita!

Wahahaha ... Scarly it's one of your friend's house lah :x

Oh yeah I wanna learn hypnotism!
Oh yeah I wanna dye my hair.

8/10
Around 11pm+ in Sunday night, siewhuay says she's going to surprise matty(her bf), by showing up at the airport 4am+ Monday.
I was so psyched cause sneaking out in the middle of the night has always been my wish(so lame can).

Anyway, I didn't slept a wink at all, just stayed up whole night watching youtube and letting time flies.

ShuuuuShuuuuShuuuuu ... TIME FLIED. Time to get ready to pick ksh, then dongeh.
So journey from Braddell, to Khatib, to Kembangan and to airport, taxi fare = $40+ (the most expensive cad ride ever)!
And while from Khatib to Dong's house, I found out the taxi went past somewhere near my house, meaning we've went a big round from my house to ksh's and back to mine!!!

The taxi uncle was like eavesdropping on us, suddenly joined in our conversation. So not good.

Ok, so I was there to send off Celine as well!!! She kept emphasising that she's going HK to rape Daniel Wu, so I kept telling her that Daniel Wu and Lisa S is now in Bintan island nude swimming ... hahahah!

Ok, so when we first saw Matty, in cohort with his friend, he totally didn't noticed us in front of him, with ksh backfacing him.
Until a point of time, he saw Dong and asked her why we're doing here and we said we're going to Japan!!!! HAHAHA .




I DON'T KNOW WHY THEY KEPT LAUGHING WHEN I TOOK PICTURES OF SUNFLOWERS LAH ! Sunflowers are like so pretty, but the only bad point about them is: they're too long to make into a short simple bouquet of flowers :x Next time, I would have a FIELD of sunflowers, lavenders, roses all sort of pretty pretty flowers in my backyard.


ksh looks like she's posing for some advertisment of Bosch/the trolley lah! rofl.



Aeroplane Aeroplane, love it.

5am in airport, looking at aeroplanes.



HAHAHAH. As our schedule was pretty tight, we went for Japan for one day and I'm back now -.-

Paranormal train.

Dongdong is looking puzzled.

I WANT TO GO OVERSEAS!