Depressed.

So many things crashing down at the same time. So many fucking problems with all the crazy people. I'm so frustrated that I'm having migraine every night, but there's no one I can confide to. Maybe not no one, but just that I can't open myself to talk to anyone. I need to change seriously. I'm too obsessed with thinking about how I present myself to others that I am losing my way. I know that, and I know that I can't change.

I'm extremely thankful to God, and I'm extremely sorry for taking for granted with my life over and over again.

How good is good?
How rich is rich?
How pretty is pretty?
How smart is smart?
How competent is competent?
How cruel is reality?

I'm a greedy person, a selfish person, a person who pratically sucks like shit. I'm negligent to everyone around me, I'm very practical and very shitty.

Basically I know myself too well and I hate this matter of fact.